Why are people stupid?

So today has not been a good day. I am just going to say that. I tried so hard to look at the positive side of things today but sometimes I just can't. The first thing that made my day horrible was that I did not do very well on my Bio test. But, during the next period (science) I forgot about that but we got a booklet of worksheets which take forever to do. Then during my spare my day went from bad to awkward when this guy said that me and this other guy should have sex.(It took all I had to say "Ew no." cause he was there as well). Lunch was okay I guess. English was good. I sat beside my friend Taylor and the half period went by really quickly. Math was stupid as usual (My teacher got so confused/frustrated he just let us leave but it was only a couple of minutes early). After school was the worst though.I was waiting for my bus which was really late and then my sister came over and starting yelling at me. Basically, it started off with her saying to know the whole story before I say anything cause I was making fun of her for "getting lost" when she did it on purpose. Then she continued to say I was a "F***ing c***" and that I had no friends. Then she turned to the girl I was standing with and said that she shouldn't be friends with me because I would just stab her in the back. And then she kept calling me a horrible person. I then said that I really did have friends but then she said that no one really liked me and everyone would be better off without me. I know I shouldn't care what people think of me but when that comes from your sister it really hurts. It took everything I had to not start crying right there. But i didn't cry. I walked away and waited for the bus inside. Then the bus didn't even come until like 2:45 - 2:50 ish. When I got home my day got somewhat better we had a really good dinner but my sister still swore at me when my mum wasn't home but now that she is she is pretending that nothing happened and that we are best friends. And I had to stay home from dance cause the roads are to slippery. So yeah all in all it was a horrible day. Sorry for the depressing post. I just needed to vent.     

Gotta love school!

Hey y'all ! So I know I am trying to be more positive but can we just take a minute to talk about how awful school can be? I mean, all it is is work, tests, and DRAMA! There is so much drama lately! But anyway, I don't really feel like talking about all that right now cause I feel like I talk about my problems to much already. So on a happier note I am no longer avoiding the person I have been avoiding. Today at lunch my friend talked with me about it and she made me realize that I was being stupid and that I should just forget about it and talk to him again, (thank you M  for helping me) so yeah we will see how that goes. Also, I have a few new favorite songs I wanted to tell you about. The first one is Old School Love by Megan & Liz. It is so cute! Who doesn't miss old school love? Like reading letters (not text messages) and holding hands (not making out). The next song I am in love with is Give your Heart A Break by Demi Lovato. The last song that I have been in love with lately is What Make You Beautiful by One Direction. This is possible my favorite song. Ever. And because of that and because I believe that everyone is beautiful I am going to leave off with some of the lyrics from that song:

You're insecure, don't know what for  
You're turning heads when you walk through the do-o-or  
Don't need make-up - to cover up  
Being the way that you are is eno-o-ough
Everyone else in the room can see it  
Everyone else but yo-ou
Baby you light up my world like nobody else
  The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed
But when you smile at the ground, it ain't hard to tell  
You don't know  
Oh oh  
You don't know you're beautiful!
If only you saw what I can see  
You'll understand why I want you so desperatley
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe  
You don't know
Oh oh  
You don't know you're beautiful!
Oh oh  
That's what makes you beautiful!

New Year New Me :)

So I have decided that since this could possibly be the last year of the world (haha yeah right) I am going to become a much happier person. I know lately all of my posts have had a very negative tone in them but no more! I guess I realized over the last few days that there is no point in worrying about the stuff I do. If I want to be happy than I have to do something about it. I can't just sit on my butt and wait for something to happen. For example, if you want to go out with a guy just tell him. What do you have to lose? You have a 50/50 shot of him liking you back. However, with that said I have also realized that the guy I used to like well I think we are better off as friends.  I know age shouldn't matter (and its not really the age so much) but we just aren't really friends with the same people. And besides who would want to ruin something so great! (our friendship)So yeah, I'm going give up on trying to get him to know i like him (well used to like him). I also think that its better not to get involved in a relationship right now. I am already busy enough with school, rehearsal, homework and dance and I might be taking another dance class which would be another 2 hours a week so yeah I barley have enough time to hang out with my best friends yet alone a boyfriend. But yeah I sorry I have been so negative lately I don't know what was wrong with me.I think I felt like my world was crumbling around me when really aside from my friend moving I have nothing to be upset about.So yeah sorry it took me so long to realize that but I have now so no worries! I am on my way to becoming a much happier better person. Oh yeah, another thing I wanted to talk about was becoming a much better friend. I feel like lately I have kind of been shutting people (some more than others) and I think i've made it seem like my friends can't trust me so I am going work on that in the new year to. I think that once I realized that no one is perfect, that everyone makes mistakes, and that everyone has good times and bad I just wanted to make my life as great as possible in order to try to help others make their lives as great as possible. Which is also why I want to start volunteering at the children's hospital once I turn 16 (thats the age you have to be :) 27 days!) I mean those kids need something to do and if I could bring a smile to even one kids face that would mean that I can make a difference. And really what could be better than hanging out with a bunch of kids! It would be so much fun! I really believe that if you are a happy person than people around you will be to! Unfortunately, it goes the same way with negativity. If you are around someone who is happy, you will be happy. If you are around someone who is not well you won't be either. Which is another reason I am going be more positive. If I am just being negative all the time no one would want to be around me. However, with all of this being said I can't promise I will never be upset again. Although I am going try to be optimistic about everything somethings are just to big.Like when my friend moves. I will be sad. That is irrelevant.  I can't change that. What I can change though is my view of life as a whole. Instead of looking on the negative side of her leaving I have to look at what I can do to stay in touch with her. Like this blog, facebook, skype. Those are the things that will get as though all this. Anyway, its getting late and i have to do my essay.

Bye!